Hey...So, my once-daily blog has been reduced to 5 posts, the last 3-4 months ago.
SO, a lot has been happening.
Yet not enough.
It feels as if I'm too scared to launch myself out there, to live, to enable myself to have fun. I really really want to, it's just that I'm scared of 'what others think.' Fimage.
It seems weird to publish what seems like a personal diary entry out there, especially when my page is linked to it, but maybe I just need to get it out there, you know, to get other people to realize I'm not some introverted loser, but I just need to warm up and get a chance to know people. Whatever. It's not like anyone sees this anyway.*
As you can see from the time, it is 'late.' But i am not insomniac today, or at least I haven't tested to see if i am yet, but I have a new experiment:
Me: NO bedtime, let's see how I am tomorrow, eh?
Mom: *shrugs shoulders* whatever.
translation: oho, we'll see how you really feel in the morning, won't we, 'honey'
I need a customary pic...or do I?
Ah, forget it, I can't find anything
But I do need to mention this; my fimage doesn't lead to my 'excessive conformity.' i'm not a poseur/poser, take your pick, I'm just too hesitant that I lose out. I am actually not that shy and introverted once you get to know me. And I hide everything behind a wall of sarcasm.
*if you actually do read this, don't hesitate to comment. please. i'm desperate. seriously.
In my defense [defence!], I, the Master of Advertising, did this quite late last night, and I did regret it in the morning. I just chuckled. However, I have decided that I need no defense [defence!] and will now proudly keep it on, in a display of defiance!
